For just about a year I had been in constant pain. At this point, I don’t know how I hurt my knee or even care to know. What happened to me during the past year is ridiculous. I was lied to by nurses, had my MRI results withheld for a week, and had no idea why I was in pain. After two doctors, a nerve specialist, and a successful surgery. I can safely say that I have no pain and am finally building my life back to what it was before all this happened.
This all happened a year ago today. My daughter and I had just gotten some dinner and brought it home. Within minutes of being home my left foot just exploded. The swelling was insane. That’s really when all my problems with the medical industry machine started. That ER doctor didn’t care what was wrong with me, he was more concerned about getting off work. I could continue with the other instances that happened. Nothing would come from it. Not even feeling better.
So for the last year, I’ve been pushing myself to get through this. It completely changed my life. I won’t get into the personal details of it. Let’s just say I didn’t expect to be in a house alone dealing with this. Now, this was my decision to separate myself from others while I was so angry. Having chronic pain is just so damn messed up. It is insane how it just changes you as a person. I know I had so many people to talk to, it just didn’t seem like talking would really help. I’m truly sorry for not reaching out to those people before they passed away.
Now I’m four weeks past my surgery. Little did I know that an exploratory surgery would completely take care of everything in the pain department. I also didn’t expect my brain to completely come out of surgery rewired. The best way I can explain it to people is that a switch went off in my head. I no longer have that negative anger fueling my thoughts. Every day is better and I just feel excited to continue on my journey through life. That doesn’t mean I know if I want to keep being the EIC here at Lv1gaming.com or even a writer for Lordsofgaming.net. One thing I do know is that I’m not going to rush into a decision until I feel it all out. I don’t need to make a bad choice at the moment.
Most people don’t realize I’ve been doing this game-writing gig for ten years now. I started on my own blog and then moved on to better things like The Inner Circle. All I can do now is love life and learn to love writing again. I’ve really been away from it for so long now. It should be exciting to see what I’m going to do next.